Thinking about thinking.
It's the curse of the analytical.
You know it's interesting--everyone wants to be analytical except the analytical. If you think you are analytical, you probably are not. If you wish you were not, you probably are.
I had an interesting conversation with someone the other day. We were talking about how much thinking is too much thinking. Is this normal? Well, what is normal? How much thinking are our minds actually capable of? Because when you start thinking about God, the mind becomes overwhelmed. How much thought were our minds designed to obsorb? Too much thinking has the ability to confuse even the most foundational concepts. Bear with me becasue I'm about to ramble and this probably isn't going to make any sense.
I believe every thought is circular. If you think about it long enough and hard enough, you can carry the concept around and around and eventually you're going to end up right back where you started. This is a dangerous thought because it leads to the idea that everything is relative. You can talk yourself out of every absolute. Reason allows it. Truth does not. This is the boundary between faith and experience. If I lived my life by experience alone, I probably would not be saved today. Salvation does not fit in the picture of reason. The whole concept just doesn't work. Then there is hope. Not a hope that things will get better, but the hope that there is a truth that cannot be seen.
Even the analytical's mind begs to believe in something it cannot see.