Monday, April 10, 2006

She's a nothing...

I was insulted today.

Oh not just your typical snide remark--this was a full-fledged, jaw-dropping, I-can't-believe-you-just-said-that insult. The comment went something like his:

Unnamed individual: She needs to be more like Heather. She needs to be a nothing.

It might have been an honor if she were referring to my demeanor of humility which I so obviously personify... (Yeah right) But no, this had nothing to do with humility. I might not have minded if she had been referring to my servant's heart, of being willing to be in the background and not receive recognition. No, that wasn't it.

She was simply referring to the fact that during my college years I had been a nobody, a nothing, unassuming, unknown, no position, no recognition.

But the insult wasn't intentional. It was actually funny because she didn't realize what she had said till it was already said.

She's nothing but a zero with the ring rubbed out. A nothing.

So of course, I got to thinking...
And if you think about this wrong, it turns to misery. I am nothing, I am worthless, O wretched worm that I am. I’m not a promoter of building self-esteem, but watch out for the other extreme. Though I must realize that I am nothing, the joy comes when I linger, not on my weakness, but on His strength.

If I am nothing, consider the joy. He is everything.
If I am nothing, consider the responsibility. God has chosen to use this marred vessel.
If I am nothing, consider the privilege. I am redeemed.

If I am nothing, consider the hope. I am being changed into His likeness.
If I am nothing, consider the comfort. In my weakness, He is strong.
If I am nothing, consider the magnitude of the gift. Look what Christ came to save.

I was complimented today.


brittany said...

heather, your testimony and friendship has truly been a great blessing. you have been a great encouragement to me. i'm praying for you.

jaron said...

Thank you for this post. I think I've read it about 20 times since I found your blog. The testimony shown here and your spirit are a conviction to me.

kathryn said...

in addition--
shall we not be amazed--

"He is my glory and the lifter up of mine head"

psalms somewhere, not sure where

Heather said...

It's Psalm 3:3. No, I didn't just know--had to look it up :) And how very true.

By the way, thanks for this quote, used it with my PC's yesterday: "Humility is understanding that it's not about being brought low but recognizing that I am low so that I can be brought higher."

Thank you Josh and Brittany for your comments. Like I said, I'm nothing....may He be praised!

Lynds :) said...

Wow, Heather you can always find the good even in other peoples mistakes :)Sorry :)
See, you knew want I meant :)
It is a good reminder to keep us all in realization that even with different roles that we have or responsibilities that we have been given, they are nothing compared to everything that Christ is.

Danika said...

Thank you for this entry. God used it.